It's safe to say that after the revelations in Madison's just-released Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny , she has successfully squashed any such questions in the future. Madison's depression in the Playboy Mansion reached harrowing depths, yet she felt trapped there: by her fears about her limited professional possibilities, by her unwillingness to admit to anyone how sad she really was, and by Hefner's emotional control over her. Some of the effects of that moment in the zeitgeist still linger today. Sitting on her shaded patio overlooking her garden on a hot summer day, Madison, now 35, said, "I felt like I had something to say about being in the midst of that whole thing that was going on where Paris Hilton and Jessica Simpson and Kendra were so celebrated — and I was a part of it too — for being dumb on TV.
By Caroline Howe For Dailymail. After living at the Playboy Mansion and being Hugh Hefner's number one girlfriend for seven years, Holly Madison exited in in search of her own identity. The thenyear-old needed to resurrect her reputation from that of being a reality show bimbo, a Playboy bunny and Hef's main squeeze. She ran to Las Vegas and gave herself four years to climb out of the rabbit hole she felt like she had fallen into. It was there that she was finally ready to fight her own demons and uncover what she wanted to do for the rest of her life - but not without some embarrassing experiences with men not Hugh Hefner.
Kendra: How Their Memoirs Differ on Life in the Playboy Mansion In her memoir, Madison accuses Wilkinson of pushing away both herself and fellow Girls Next Door star Bridget Marquardt, choosing instead to befriend the new Playmates and barring them from being friendly with her costars. Hef is the most amazing human being. This is not even real. This person is out for revenge.
Holly Madison  born December 23,   is a model , showgirl , television personality and New York Times best-selling author. Holly Madison was born in Astoria, Oregon. Helens, Oregon. She later attended Portland State University for two years, majoring in theater and psychology.